everything & nothing

Shades of grey.

Do you ever get in your car and hear a song on the radio and then you get to your destination and you go back to your car and you hear that same song again? This seems to be my life. It is all black and white, there are no shades of grey. I feel like I am in one of those hamster wheels just spinning and spinning and nothing changes except the moon and the sun. This could quite possibly be the worst feeling in the world, a feeling of monotony, nothing exciting or different happens, I swear if a bowel movement was irregular I would probably throw a party or something. How does one escape this feeling? Do I wake up one day and its completely different? Perhaps I am just overreacting, perhaps this is the first stage of depression, or maybe this is just what happens when you are ripped away from the only thing that ever made sense? Can anyone answer these questions? I just want a new song to play so I can get on with my life.