everything & nothing

The last pizza roll.

It appears as though I always start one of these out with a question, I guess you can call me the Carrie Bradshaw ofACTUAL human problems, but here goes, when did everyone become so self righteous? Why is it so difficult to simply just BE there for a friend, to help and to ask for nothing in return? I mean, what is the definition of ‘friendship’ if everything is “i’ll scratch your back if you scratch mine?” This is not politics we are discussing here, this is friendship. It is wipe my tears away as I cry, tape up my boobs on my wedding day, tell my slimy ex boyfriend to sit and spin, let me eat the last pizza roll kind of friendship. On one of the worst nights of my life I climbed into an ice cold shower with all of my clothes on, I am not sure why I did it, to muffle the sounds of my sobbing, to help me go numb, I’m not really sure, but what I am sure of is that a friend (20+ miles away might I add) drove in the middle of the night to come make sure I was alright. That is friendship and you are all sadly dragging through life if you don’t have at least one person who will drop everything and come peel you out of wet clothes and put you into dry ones, to kiss you, and to tell you that your life is in fact worth living, you are truly and sadly alone in this world without at least one of those. So stop asking yourself what someone can do for you and start putting your time and effort into fulfilling human relationships, relationships that make your heart hurt so good, because nothing will ever feel better than that.